Creativity As An Outlet For Anxiety

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It occurs to me sometimes, that not everyone draws, writes, plays an instrument, sews or is a creative person. Genuinely it confuses me a bit, as its such a huge part of my life, I’d be lost without it. I wanted to talk a little bit today about how being creative helps me.

There’s something about creating things that gives you this sense of achievement, this rush of good feelings that can brighten your mood even on the dreariest of days. From penning your thoughts down in prose or a poem, to drawing and painting, to sewing or crocheting clothes or just writing and playing music that can unwind you to the point of complete relaxation. It gives you this huge break from whatever it is that’s bothering you, and can be a great way to work through issues.

Recently in particular, I’ve found a new love for writing poetry, and it’s really getting to some core issues that bother me about life - in particular the idea of time and the concept of death. I know that sounds really dark, but it’s helping me get to the bottom of a lot of anxieties I have surrounding these two aspects. Time is a funny one, things are constantly changing and moving forward and it can be hard to keep up, but at the same time there’s some moments you don’t ever want to leave behind. The idea of death, it’s something that’s going to happen to all of us at some point, and maybe we’re too clever as a species in the way we can constantly question things, but we’re surrounded by death, we always have been and we always will be, and the idea that your life is just a dot on a wider timeline is a lot to grasp. Is there something else waiting for us after this? Is life just a test for what awaits us next? Or is this it?

These are the ideas that I love exploring, when I get that little niggling thought in my brain that either ‘things aren’t like how they used to be’ or ‘something could happen right now and me or someone I care about could die’ then out comes the pen and paper or the sketchbook and I work through it. Putting all these scattered thoughts on paper can be the fodder behind the best creative work I produce. It’s something I haven’t yet shown the world, and I don’t know If I ever will as these things run deep and have done since I had to comprehend a death.

Creativity as a whole is playing a huge role at the moment in my quest for healing and recovering on a deeper level. My love for written word is running strong, and whilst I’ve got a long way to go in terms of creative prowess, I feel like the work I’m producing now, in the quiet and undisturbed realm of my room, will be pieces of art in all forms that I carry with me for life, as a reminder for whenever these thoughts come back to haunt me.

I don’t think I’ll ever be able to not fear death, as instinct means we’re all about the preservation of life, but whenever my boyfriend is out riding his motorbike, if I'm out walking alone, if a friend is doing something that puts them at the slightest risk or if I watch yet another tragedy on the news. If I can use my creativity to transform this fear of loss into a love for the here and now, instead of getting lost in a whirlwind of anxieties, then I’ll be on the right path to a much calmer me.

You see, I may always be the sort of person that won’t cross a road, even if there’s no car in sight, until the traffic lights turn red, and my fight or flight may always kick in when someone I care about makes a daring cross. When I'm around friends, that knot in my stomach reminding me that this could be the time where one of them dies may never loosen itself and ambulance sirens may always be a cause for concern in my eyes - a reminder that life is so fragile and passing.

Slowly but surely though, I’m getting there. I’m making steps every day by reassuring myself that life is everywhere, and in the same way the trees renew themselves every winter, life always comes back around full circle and that's the bittersweet beauty of it. I'm just allowing myself to channel that into the work I'm producing.

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12 comments

  1. Creativity can be such a healthy outlet for so many things! Fearing death is very natural. I don't so much fear my own, as I fear death of loves ones. Learning to live without those you care about is something no one should ever have to do. Thanks for sharing.

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    1. I know right, there's something so therapeutic about getting it all out, and its great when you create something from it. I'm the same as well!

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  2. I love this! I don't suffer with anxiety but I suffer with depression and creativity has always been the best outlet for me - it amazing to see it helps others too x

    Kayleigh Zara 🌿www.kayleighzaraa.com

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    1. That's great, I'm glad you've got an outlet for it all x

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  3. This is a great idea and call help so many🌹

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  4. I agree, creativity can be such good help even though not everyone appreciate arts but, it's there for a reason. As for me personally, taking picture calms me. I don't know what I'd do without my camera. This is a lovely post, hun. You keep doing what makes you feel better. Believe in yourself always. x Ain (www.captaineverland.co.uk)

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    1. Thank you for such a lovely comment! I do love photography, it's such a great form of expression. x

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  5. I completely agree, I find that journaling helps me, almost calms my mind. Love this post x
    Love Vicki ♡ victoriajanex

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    1. I get you, it can be such a relaxing way to unwind x

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  6. Such a fantastic post!
    I love the idea of writing poetry to let it out and explore my feelings.
    Cora | http://www.teapartyprincess.co.uk/

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    1. Thank you :D it's interesting to see the results, you'll be surprised what emotions and feelings pour themselves out on the page

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